2015 In Review

Dear jumjum...

2015 has been a roller coaster ride and really, it has zoomed past. 

I experienced some most unexpected highs, for example giving my longest presentation ever relatively smoothly without any prior rehearsal (I was severely pressed for time) and not knowing if I even had enough material to even decently cover the allotted time; I reached the most tipsy state (was I drunk? I still can't decide) that I have ever been during summer break; and my proudest achievement would be that I boldly took my first, serious, 4-credit computer course, Introduction to Object-oriented programming. 

In the beginning of the semester, I was cautious but relatively confident with the course...and ended up being below the mean for midterm. Interspersed throughout the semester were periods of feeling utterly hopeless and panicked when my code wouldn't work for labs or assignments. I become a complete wreck when I'm in panic mode, and I think OOP has forced me into staying calm keeping my wits about me, simply because it is guaranteed that nothing will be solved if I'm running around like a headless chicken. It has also gave me a taste of being the underdog in class- my mouth wide open with confusion while the rest of the class nods with understanding. I guess I just needed some time and sufficient practice to adjust to their way of thinking and the language, because I did well in the finals, and I'm really really relieved because it's a testament that I learned and improved. 

In 2015, I also hit my lowest point ever, feeling like I'm not good enough for anything, and I think that it all stems from overthinking. Still working on that, and I've learned to just go for the things I want- because really, what do I have to lose if I fail? 

*atm*